I wish even in this cheap imitation...
the long long oblivion would have come...
carried me high...held me up...
carried me through...through the light...
past these melancholic fields...and soul sucking days...
I wish it had carried me...and delivered me home.................................................
All of this accentuate one thing: insignificance of man...esp The Man...
an unremarkable dot...even less...in the vastness of universe...yet pervertly significant...in face of the difficult odds against it...yet matemathics makes it easy: ...if it is plausible...then sooner or later...in an infinite setting...it is bound to happen...
I see you with flow...and I try to join...yet the wave pushes me back...I do not fit in...match...
The Man...
as incompatible as ever...
"No one to accuse lest thee are accused..."
a soul spared...or rather spent...with the empty shell casing...which was The Man...left...
The Man is belittled...
furious and sad...it is odd...it is like bitter sweet...
"a bullet may pierce through one...yet it will only scratch the layers of men"
shi.t....what a dilated crap to digest...
"Happiness is Understanding"
or is it...
"Happiness is Ignorance"...
Have I harmed you? Could I have been less loyal? Could I have cared more?
shame on you...yet
yet what you did to The Man...
is NOTHING...in comparisson to what The Man did to HIMSELF...
The Man...Story goes on...boring as ever...sh.it...
a friend shouted "Welcome to 1984"...
and I shouted back..."In case you haven't notice it was already 1984 you ignorant fool"
- hum...how is everything?
- fine...just fine...
- you know...I havent been neglecting you...I was just too busy...it is a hard job keeping such an delicate equilibrium...
- I know..I know...and I am grateful for everything...no complains at all...none what so ever...
- hum...but why aren't you happy?
- happy??! I didn't know happiness was included in the package...but well I can try to be happy...just for you...how is this smile for happy?
- but it's so artificial...
- its the best I can manage right now...
- I am sorry...
- don't be...I am sorry...any way it is not going to last much longer.....and again...I am grateful............
and as he walks away...the other one whispers..."more than you'd ever know........"
these things...are all...so overrated...
all these desires...
all these memories...
I wish it was as simple as a zaaaaapppp....
you would tear it off....
in a matter of seconds...
swift....and painless.......
and it would be all done..............
"there you go monsieur La Marquee....you are sterile........."
and I...with tearful eyes...full of gratitude......would say...
"Great work...it is a clean break from all those things........................"
yet....it is not like that....
and God...emerges from a fortune cookie...like a Deus ex Machina...
and says....once again.....................................
"This too shall pass my child..........."
Yooohooooooo....heyyyyyyyy dudeeeeeeeeeeeee.....down here...in this fairy tale..........see I have a proposition for you...you get me into a studio ghibli story line..even as an antagonist...and I'll trade my world for it...everything included...just to be in that universe..you know...I can't make it for much longer here.....
Rage...Jealousy...Anger...Pity...damn it...damn it.........the day of remorse will come...oh yes it will come...day of universal...widespread remorse...loyalty is invaluable..."wind beneath your wing" is invaluable...oh it will come...................remorse en masse...
I've been through all these sentiments and emotions and experiences and illusions...and I prevailed...battered...yet not shattered...beaten...yet not broken...I've been scraped out of all my gooey soft parts...and all that is left is a hard resilient shell...that holds his head up and shows the world his finger...and honeychills I must say "Screw you too"...
Baby I have to go...
cause you let me go...
and...I am floating...floating......floating....floating....floating away..........................
Here is the cycle of an anthropomorphic parasite:
at first there is discovery...
and then comes the pitiful attempt at attachment...which for him...with his limited social skills and unremarkable methods...is quite difficult...
then comes lust...dedication and the ever so dangerous dependance...
but before you know it...he will be filled with disillusion...
inevitably there will be betrayal...shedding and tearing...detachment...which at times means he has to leave parts of him behind...merely for the rest to survive...
there will be saddness and grief...but c'est comme ca...c'est la vie...
and then will come seclusion...a parasite hybernating for the right time...waiting for the next prey...
ironically the preys always get the upper hand...
he is like a blood sucking flea in a Fellini circus...jumping throuh hoops of fire...rings of misery...
...
you see...
for him...
human contact is over rated...yet mesmerizing...it is like...craving for the poison...that will slowly...very slowly...intoxicate you..................
It really doesnt matter whether I understand the reasons behind all of this or not...
What matters is that I understand the consequences of it...
I live the consequences of it all...
....
so whatever reason you might have...
I am sure it is justifying enough...
but I don't need justification...
It really doesn't change a thing...
the end result is what matters...what I feel...what I understand...
...
نه بابا؟!!!
This state is one of despair and destitude...
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"Why? Why me?"
"Why not?...why not you?"
"What will come? what will happen?"
"What else can happen?"
"How long? until when?"
"a Finale is a certainty hidden in the uncertainty of time..."
Go on...slap me out of this...
Christy Brown, I am a crippled within, a CP entangled inside...
The emotions run wild, they scream, yet only a shudder, a glimpse, a sigh surfaces...
Hidden and weak...
May be...and just may be...
The Love Deprived, Is Implied...
You and Me...
We are implied...............................................
No great war left to fight in...no cause...no glory...
Just this last fight and flight...this dash through life...
This is it...plain and simple...
and it is too damn hard to finish on your own...
nevermind that...tough crowd tonight...very tough...
Baby...I can't be seen naked with you..socially...
this is just a reminder...that you need to go on...survive...without me...
I will see you off with roses...with my hat off...
trumpets and horns playing in the background...
concealing my deep bitterness and sorrow...
baby...now I am on your side...
this is why I am telling you to go...
you will let go...and I will perish...and you will florish...
go child...blossom into the life you truely deserve...
My guess is as good as any...but I think it's safe now...
up yours...here it is again...go ahead and wipe it clean again...
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"he hey hey..." he sounded odd..
"he he hey...this ship is going down..." and with a pause added "...finally..."
he then turned and ordered...
"Arms at ready..
twenty one gun salute..
one round...
mark..."
and twenty one red bullets darted through the night...................
If you are reading this...read it like in the background Joni Mitchel is singing "Both Sides Now"
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I owe my happiest moment to you...
and for that...
I am ever so grateful...
But then came...the saddest moment of my life...
and for that...
you are forever and ever in debt to me......
now you are...
as far as you can be...
may be not physically far...
but from my heart...
I know that you are...
light years away..............
3:30 am...while I am decontaminating your stomach...
with a size 18 NG tube fixed in your nose...
I just wish I could say "It's OK"
but it is not...
you do this...all of this...
just to let them know the misery you live in...
but damn it...you just cause me misery and agony...as I am decontaminating your gut...
it may not be OK...but it passes...it goes...
and if you hang on long enough...there is a sense of continuity...that carries you on...
nothing aint perfect...but something is for sure...all of us are far bigger than this....
As easy as that...they patch you up...send you back to the field...to be torn apart...once again...
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Hey...now that you have lightened up this flame inside me...
please don't extinguishe it...........................
This is a testimony on how insignficant one becomes...a truly sad realization.............
What my life needs are sets of random hap hazardous events...
but...well...my life is on a predetermined track.................
and it's going down baby.........oh yeah!!!
"don't cling on...let it go...let it be..."
Betrayed and exhausted...having become a part of my usual business...it begged...the fatigue of all my burden having wore it down...
"I'm addicted...this narcicsm runs through my veins..."
Frustrated and hopeless...having been the one who buried it...I responded...the agony of time having wore me down...
"start over...move on...go my child...be with peace..."
Saturated with care and lust...having saved my soul...having uplifted me...it shivered...the sorrow of what I had become having it's toll on it...
"let me be...you are...you are my last stand..."
Shattered and broken...I mumbled...having been the deserter...I crumbled...the remorse of it all tearing me to pieces...
.....It and I........we became One.......somewhere along the way...............It became the one that carried my burden....I became the one carried by it...all the way.....and I'm grateful............
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They take me to the LOST & FOUND...
There they Tag me...
A week passes by...although I was found...no body seemed to have lost me...
So they auction me off...Piece by Piece.....
It must not go on like this...
Time is running out...
** Earlier, I wrote something as one of my Anthropological Desalination speeches, however it wasn't really what I wanted to say, when I read it, I found myself wondering, so I am changing it...this speech that you see is the alternative one that I just wrote.
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There is an old saying which goes like this "Every man for himself". This statement has lasted through many many centuries of wars, development and advancement, yet now more than ever we feel it all around us. As human societies have evolved, a sense of individualism has grown among us, suddenly we have become more self centered, and thus our own existence and our own lives have become "The Greater Good" and not the greater good that concerns the whole society, we are subjective utilitarians now, while before we used to be objective utilitarians, we have reached the conclusion that "What is a society, if it is not serving me?" (I must admit that personally, I am an Egalitarian)
In contrast to what I said, there is another concept at extreme end of which there is the term "heroism". Heroism is designated to self-less actions performed by individuals, who put the good of the society before their own, this is being praised as a virtue in our societies, while it should be a norm; a social duty. A soldier who is killed in battle is not a martyr; he is a person who does what he has to do. While such an action must be praised, it is not because someone did something extraordinary, it is not simply because he has left the principle of "Every man for himself" but mostly because he has fulfilled his social obligation.
An individual in our context and time can not maintain his individuality without other individuals or rather without the society, we are not only defined by our connections in the society (I am someone's son...or someone's brother...or someone's enemy) but also our very own existence depends on the functions of the society. We are not the simple foraging societies of early human time, in order to eat, have something to wear, have some place to stay and so on; we are dependant on the society. Yes, we are still individuals, but individuals within a context. The motto "Every man for himself" still applies, but this "for himself" should be in accordance with the overall direction of the society, such a synchronicity will benefit every person in the society. This means that we have "Social Responsibilities", which every (or most) individuals should adhere to, if they want to protect their individuality.
However, still when faced with the choice between "Self Obligations" and "Social Obligations"--ethics aside--One might choose the "Self", as the whole purpose of the "Social Obligations" is to serve the self, so one must follow social norms, laws and obligations up to a point that they don't contradict the obligations toward one's self except when we can morally justify it; I mean when there is a "Greater Good" that supersedes the Good of our own, if we find that greater good, then it is not a big act of heroism or something extraordinary if we do something in line with that greater good. It is the logical and rational decision to make.
Whenever a person is faced with a choice between him/herself and the greater good of others, he must not make the decision based on his emotions or the false senses of obligations that society has built in him, but rather he should face it logically and ask him/herself whether "Greater Good" applies to him or to the society. Duty towards self or towards the society?
I think what I am saying is that don't rush into some heroic action without thinking it through, don't act based on your instincts, think of the greater good involved and if it is rationally and morally justifiable then go ahead, Save the World!!! and ask for nothing in return, because you did what you had to do.
Rather than acts of great heroism what I think is necessary, is to fulfill our very little social responsibilities, we do not need huge sacrifices on behalf of a very few brave souls to save this world, what we need are little concessions given by everyone of us; concessions that are big enough to satisfy our "Social Conscience" yet small enough that they don't jeopardize our sense of "Individualism"
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** I know all of these sound like a bunch of crap, but compared to what I had written here earlier, it is much better.
این از اون اظهارنظرهاییه که به من هیچ ربطی نداره...با این حال خوشم میاد که مزخرف الکی سرهم کنم!
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ال گور که رقیب جورج بوش در انتخابات اولش بود و نتیجه را تنها به خاطر قوانین پیچیده حاکم بر انتخابات در آمریکا به جورج بوش واگذار کرد و مدتیه که به عنوان لابییست محیط زیست فعالیت می کنه؛ اخیرا نکته جالبی را ذکر کرد، اون گفت که آمریکا می تونه در عرض یه دهه سوخت های فسیلی را با دیگر منابع انرژی قابل تجدید جایگزین کنه. اون و خیلی از آدمای دیگه تو گوشه و کنار دنیا می دونن که همچین تغییری امکان پذیره با این حال هنوز قابل توجیه نیست. و این بدون شک به خاطر اینه که زیرساختای کنونی اقتصاد آمریکا و دنیا بر اساس سوخت های فسیلیه که این باعث می شه که حرکت به سمت منابع پایدار انرژی به معنی رها کردن زیرساخت های فعلی باشه که فقط توی آمریکا ارزشی معادل تریلیون ها دلار داره.
Al Gore, who was George W. Bush's opponent in his first election and lost the presidency to him only because of the complex rules governing the electoral process in USA and who right now is an environmental lobbyist, recently made a very interesting comment; he said that within a decade America can switch from fossil fuels to other more sustainable energy sources. He as well as many other people around the globe know that such a transition is feasible yet it is not still justifiable. This is undoubtedly due to the fact that the current infrastructure of not only the US economy but the global economy is based on fossil fuels, this would mean that a rapid transition to more sustainable energy sources needs abandoning the current infrastructure, which in US alone sums up to many trillion dollars.
So even if Al Gore challenges the
Right now oil exporting countries have the initiative and they must try not to lose it, there are several key strategies that they need to follow: the first one is a temporary measure; they should try to calm the market, they need to make more oil available and stabilize the market (although I think it is arguable that the global economy can still accommodate higher prices (as high as 200-250$ per barrel)). The second strategy concerns how they invest the money gained from oil exports. The best example is
Many believe that "Life" is arguably the core of the universe, it seems that all has led to this, and as insignificant and week as it may seem, it is the result of billions and billions of tiny adjustments in the mechanism of being. Probability of there being an environment in which life could commence, evolve and excel is a very minute one, in fact so small that one can almost say it is impossible. Yet gallaxies and stars and planets endured the agony of time, which is almost like an eternity, so that the complex laws governing them become meaningful or in other words through life they found a sense of purpose. This was a remarkable thing, now universe was a Pinctada (Pearl Oyster) that protected within itself the precious gift of life.
However, I believe, that "Life" is not entirely different from "Being", it is simply a biological status of being, and what is truely remarkable is the fact that organic life when ended becomes a carcass, still an organic state of being, which is then recycled to create organic life once more. This is the "Karma" of life; generations after generation of biologic carbon based life forms have come one after another, a dead human is absorbed by bacteria, that die and enrich the soil from which a tree is born, whose fruit another human eats. In this sense I do believe in "Karma", I believe that what constitutes me are my forefathers, and the living things before me, and so on...and if I go back for enough long time, the dust that I am now, was a dust from a blown up star from far far away. So we are part of the same "being" that rocks and planets and stars are. Based on this I argue that universe is alive, that universe is life, the ultimate "Macro-Organism"; it beats, it expands, it moves and changes. To this I must add, that I can not find any purpose for existence either as a biologic life form or as a lonely white dwarf in the sky, than being itself. In other words, "Being is self explanatory"
Other life forms (including the universe), they take life for what it is, they face it "One day at a time", which even for us, even faced with worst days it would be tolerable and easy to comply with. It is however another side effect of life that makes it complex and hard to apprehend, and that is the "Cumulative Effect of Life". i.e. a day that comes is not independant from days before it, their effect upon us accumulate through time and shape us, form us or wear us out. However in case of us, humans, there is not just the "Burden of the Past" but also there is an "Anticipation of Future", this means that simple existence, is not justifiable for us, as we dread a future to come and with it a sense of purpose.
I'd like to finish my speech with a recap in form of a silly awful poem:
"Take life one day at a time, This will be easy,
but beware, life has a cumulative effect,
if you hang on to it, it becomes a burden,
and if this is not heavy enough for you,
there is always the anticipation of tomorrow,
now this will surely wear you down,
so if you want my advice, here it is:
Be and let it be"
Nature had found a way to be flex it's muscle against the hardness and bitterness of "being", the stone like quality of universe and stars and galaxies. Thus where odds were good enough, a new concept was added to "being"; the concept of "life". It all started with a tiny carbon based molecule. Then a fool proof strategy was needed to perfect the new concept into something that would define "being", the universe and even the nature itself. Thus "Evolution" was planned.
The tiny molecule started it's journey along the route of evolution and transformed and transformed, adopted and evolved, into microbes, insects, plants, animals and so on...now something gooey and soft...something biologic was dominating the bitter cold face of the planets (planets as who knows how many other planets share this story with us). The evolution seemed to work perfectly, yet the success of the Gooey Beings was limited, so it was decided to add "Neuron Power" or "Central Nervous System" to the picture. Thus the once clueless being became intelligent, intelligent enough to tackle basic obstacles of everyday struggle for survival.
The success of "Intelligence" was so mind boggling that nature made a fundamental mistake, a new plug-in was designed for life, they called it "Consciousness", suddenly life became aware, Humankind was born. At first everything seemed ok, but then civilisation was born, the Man learnt how to exploit the nature.
The Son Began To Rebel Against The Mother Nature.
Humans fighted for dominance, and they gained it through the weapon that nature had provided them, what they lacked in physical strength they compensated with Ideas, with thinking. They became innovators, and so fast was the rate of their innovations that nature was left behind, evolution was left behind, Man no longer needed to evolve in order to survive diseases and harsh conditions and so on, it simply bailed himself out by devising short cuts, breakthroughs and escape routes. This was when the mistake of nature became prominent, with evolution halted, the quest for perfection, for perfect being, for the ultimate creation of nature had ended. The plan had failed, the gooey stuff had went so far as becoming a well trimmed, intelligent being and then things had gone mad, the planet, the other members of gooey stuff (e.g. animals) were sacrificed to fulfill the desire of Human to dominate.
This spells the begining of a doom, "he who will not evolve shall perish". This simply translates to the fact that now that we have stopped the natural process of evolution in human kind, we need to follow in that track artificially, we need to improve ourselves, for example most of our organs were designed for a 50-60 life span, but we have extended life expectancy well into 70-80 using science and technology, but the physiology of our bodies was not designed for such a long life, so we become old, frail and more importantly a "Burden", so we need to artificially design new organs for ourselves with better efficacy and longer life span.
So when faced with the question of "Geneticly Engineered Human", I have only one answer:
"Hell Yeah!!!"
Well the primary season is nearly ended, I don't care much about the republican race, although I must confess that republicans usually have a more prominent international role than democrats, however their effect on the world is a negative one. The way I see it if McCain is elected present, he will declare war against my country, he will replace this government with one worse than this, and thousands will die in the process. Look at the Bush dynasty, they have been one of the most outstanding warmongers of 20th century, if they could they would declare a world wide war along with civil war and intergalactic wars!!!
Enough about the republicans. For the democrats, well the race is almost over, Barak Obama is gearing up for a national campaign, while Hillary is waiting for the right moment to gracefully bow out (personally I think that time has passed). However for american people I would have said that Hillary had more solid and reliable plans at least for my part of expertise which is health care. As much as I didn't like her foreign policy, I hated Obama's campaigning strategy, which I can simply describe as populistic; it may be quite a silly comparison but he reminds me of our president, a populist who can rally masses, but can actually deliver nothing. But it is not for me to say as I am proudly not an American!!!
Now let's look ahead to 2012 presidential elections, I want to purpose two candidates whose run off will be quite fun to watch: Oprah Winfrey Vs. Michael Moore. I think Oprah will participate as a democrate, but how the hell should I know what is Michael Moore (may be Mormon!). But one thing I am sure of is that, Oprah will be representing the Corporation of America! and Michael will be representing the Actual People of America! (New Political Entities coming to polling stations near you!!!). Oprah will think that she is running for presidency, for the benefit of the world, people, human rights, Hollywood actors and yes Global Warming! but she is naive, she will save two puppies out of ten million, ten girls out of hundred thousand and so on. She will boast about green life while her talk show is responsible for a major part of global warming (consider the TV hours per day spent watching Oprah and then multiply that by the electricity TVs consume per hour and then multiply that by the amount of Fossil Fuel burnt to produce that electricity and then calculate the proportion of global warming the final sum is contributing to!!!)
But she will have a very effective and powerful weapon, The Media. The greedy corporation run thing! that has access to every soul on the planet (ok fine almost everyone) and by media claim, Oprah is the Philantropist of all time (behind corporation guys like Bill Gates and Warren Buffet) and then there is the matter of money, Oprah will have billions of campaining funds, while Michael will have support of the blue collars who themselves need financial support!!!
However Michael, is a genuine article! He is not blind nor a fool, he sees the big picture, but talks in a way that he pisses off enough people. But at least he is honest, which is quite an terrible quality for a president to have. He is though but he will be knocked out in the first round of election campaining.
That election will have many firsts, among them the first african american woman (Oprah) running for presidency (among with her vice president nominee aka friend: Gale!) and the first Triple X large person (Michael) running for the presidency of US of A. Actually Michael's people need to publish two posters for him each containing one half of him!!!
Returning to 2008 presidential contest: Vote for Ralph Nader!
If Isaac Asimov was alive and wanted to rewrite his "Caves of Steel " book, he would not have needed to describe a Cosmopolitan city in future, that future is already here, in his book he described cities which if cut off from outside would die within hours. He describes a devaluation of mankind in face of scarcity of resources and population density, a dystopian version of the world where survival of mankind relies on Yeasts and their products. Except the part about Yeasts, the whole idea doesn't seem so far fetched right now.
There are megacities which are housing millions of people, and curiously enough, these people are structured into layers defined by socioeconomic factors (mostly wealth anyway), however the main burden of running these gargantuan cities falls upon the shoulders of the lower layers, and also on the environment. For each mega city there needs to be an area at least hundreds of times bigger, in order to simply feed the city. You can actually feel that the city is sucking in, sucking in money, resources, humans and even feelings even our souls. the allure of mega cities, tempts everyone, from way out (like from space) it actually appears like an utopian version of human civilization, even insects mistake it for the moon and fly towards it. However this high density of people has not led to the great solution, instead cities have became breeding grounds for diseases, crimes. Cities are spelling death for everything that human evolution has achieved through the years. In cities, the moral and believes of individuals mix to a degree that from the resulting overall mesh of tangled ideas, no sensible conclusion can be made. A society simply falls to a lower status of being, that of shameless parasitic existence. Long have gone the days of Industrial cities and urban production, cities like Detroit or Liverpool have died, and a new mutated and mutilated entity has been born, actually now, nothing is produced in cities (except pollution), only Service Sector is effectively active, a virtual sector; where the city creates a need, and the city fulfills it, it is a manner of self justification.
The megacity is a monster who breathes in fresh air and exhales deadly carcinogenic fumes, the never saturating monster, expands like a dense bacterial colony, annexes any human settlement around it, joins other megacities and accelerates towards it's inevitable doom. The vastness and the complicated mechanism of survival, becomes it's vulnerability, it's weakness, the city will eventually become paralyzed, all it needs is a trigger, an earthquake, a bomb or ... . The city crumbles, mass riots will rise and the great dystopian motto of every large city "everyone for himself" will become the order of the day. Masses will die, the wealth will be looted and every sign of civilization shall vaporize.
No wonder we create superheroes, the cities will reach the point that nothing humanly possible can save them, although they will reach that point through human means, through human greed, in that moment only a superhero can save this ailing structure. Then Batman should save Guatham city and Spiderman should save New York. Actually it was a great idea to imagine that Robocop will police the streets of Detroit, as the motor city is the classic example of human's failure at reaching the golden dream.
Cities when first formed were crowns of human civilization, a sign of progress, prospect and better future, they grew with civilization and then reached a threshold after which they became a hurdle to humanity and civilization. A Dystopian version of existence.
....You may ask me "so what?" is there anything we can do? well I think not at this moment, we have far passed the point of no return, we either should await that eventual doom's day, armageddon or end of the world, or well we can simply emigrate, where?
To new solutions, even new planets!!!
The battle of dominion at the very bottom of the evolutionary chain, is simply dominion over extinction; an urge for survival. As we come higher in the chain, we face new battles for dominion, which are battle of dominion between species, which species comes higher in the food chain, which species relies less on other species' survival (adoptability) and who gets the ladies!!!!
In higher mamals and primates however the mood suddenly changes, there is an urge for dominion within the species, which is called "who leads the gang around here dude?", this is why male lion defines a territory and aggressively defends it, although I must say the move up the chain does not mean that the lower battles of dominion are phased out, no a male lion still needs to sit on his ass while the lady does the shopping or in this case hunting. Interesting enough through out evolution domination of a gender over the other gender (male over female, or vise versa) has become less important, while standing out among the other members of the same gender has gained importance, the main battle is over which Lion gets to keep the ladies (The Dominant) and who goes with his tail wagging between his legs (The Subordinate).
Humans (as higher primates) also face the battle of dominion, in our notion we call this "leading or being led". In case of mankind the battle has evolved into curious dimensions that of races, religions, countries and football teams!
The interesting fact of the matter is that there is another side to dominion which is subordination, for he who leads, there is one who is led. So in a sense the relationships, all of them whether romantic, sexual, financial or so on, involves one who is dominant and one who is dominated. This is like the negative and positive poles of a magnet. This is what ensures that a relationship is sustained (although one does not necessarily need to be dominant in every aspect of the relationship)
There is an inevitability involved with "Guilt", it will eventually be present in everyone of us. The guilt follows when we do something we desire and even when we abstain from it, in later case it will be called "regret" which is essentially guilt, however a morally justified one.
It is interesting that "pleasure" has been attached to guilt, it is an essence of being human, the guilt and shame have been interwoven into our souls, so that while we enjoy pleasure and it actually has biological and psychological benefits for us, it is associated with a level of guilt or shame, this makes us wary of being joyful, thus human is intently devided in two, The one who sins and enjoys, and the one who bears the guilt and suffers.
Guilt is felt when one follows the stream of nature. in lower species in the evolution chain what pleasurable senses the nature has provided them with shall be satisfied, a dog won't abstain from eating or copulating when the occasion arises. However, we humans have developed "morality" as opposed to pleasure, the orthodox jews believe that the divine way is to fight the nature and it's urges, in a sense there is a battle going on inside us, the ever lasting battle between good and evil, which both are merely human concepts, the good and bad are created and maintained by mankind so that there is always a struggle facing us, moral dilemmas, all of us have had them and will have them. There is no single human being who can say that I don't have a moral stand point, all of us, even the lowest of us, eventually reach a point where good and bad are differentiated, and we choose our battle ground, which for every individual is always the good side! although this good side may oppose the good side of others, or the morality of the society.
Guilt follows us every where, I bore witness when he, the Jesus, himself was put on the cross, and in those last moments of life, he fancied Mary the magdalen, and dreamt of copulating with her, so even he died guilty. There is a battle of guilt always raging on inside of us, the battle which is basically:
Me Vs. Me
Evolutionary Stable Strategy is the "Nash Equilibrium" theory applied to evolution theories. It actually implies that certain strategies (ESS) exist that ensure that if evolution is only achieved using "Natural Selection" then the species that are following the ESS will always be selected over the mutants. This ensures long-term survival and dominance of a race or specie. It has been long discussed that being "Social" is the humans' ESS, yet living socially has been seen in many species, and personally I think the true ESS is "Deception" or more correctly put "The Ability to Deceive".
having said all of these, there is also the Essential Survival Strategy (again ESS), this refers to minimum strategies that a player (specie, race, …) should adopt in order to survive, this does not ensure long term prospect and dominance of that player however it is basically what is needed to stay in the game, this acts as a cornerstone for evolutionary stable strategies. I think in case of us humans!!! Essential survival strategy consists of being Omnivorous! (So beware Vegetarians!)
On a planet nearby, semi intelligent species of the milky way galaxy are holding a meeting, the meeting is called "The Semi Intelligent Gathering for Emphasizing on the Rights of the Semi Intelligent". this has been met by great enthusiasm by semi intelligent habitants of the world, however intelligent species have completely ignored it. For the non intelligent species, well this is just like everything else that goes around in the world and they don't understand it.
What follows is a conversation between two semi intelligent life forms who have met each other in the meeting:
- hey dude..
- hey dude...
- so whats up? why are you here dude?
- well, I guess for the meeting, how about you?
- the same dude, I was in the "relationship counselling meeting" earlier, and I think there was a point in there...
- yeah, me too, my grasp over the whole thing was that, "three is crowded for a relationship"..so it is our right to be one of "only two individuals in the relationship"
a third person walks in, they completely ignore him, well it is their right to keep the relationships, even the semi intelligent ones only for two individuals.....
It doesn't matter where or when or between whom this conversation sets place...it could be me arguing to God...it could be a lunetic's dialogue with an imaginary hallucinatory friend...but the important fact is that I am in this conversation, I am the one who is complaining...but for the sake of entertainment let's say that the scenery is the planet Krypton, Kal-L or Superman has just returned to krypton and is complaining to Jor-L or his father (try to imagine the voice of Marlon Brando!!!)...however comicly set...this conversation albeit short is as sad as the words...
- You know, at first I thought I can not cope with your world, but then I found that my coping mechanisms are ok, but your world isn't, it just refused to treat me fairly, then I found out that the world is ok, you know it should be, the world treats everyone fairly, it crushes some and spares the others, you know the Essential Survival Strategy (ESS). But I kept alternating from the crushing form of life to the relief phase and yet back again to the phase when everything collapses on me. So honestly I think it is your fault...it is either yours or mine, and I rather want it to be your fault.......
You say nothing for a while, with a big grin on your face, you stroke my back and say:
- Well son, it is definitely not your fault, it's not mine either, the problem is, my son....you are fundamentally flawed, and there isn't anyone to blame.........
